| Today we sang When I survey the Wondrous Cross at church.. it was beautiful and made me think of our Prep Singers' good old days. This past week was very tough. It could've been the most difficult and the longest. An hour felt like a day, and a day felt like a year. There was so much going through my head that I didn't have energy to let my feelings out of me. I had lost all confidence in myself and I didn't know who I was anymore. Self-identity crisis. It all started after spring break... when I was around people whom I thought I could relate myself and my life to... but I couldn't. I didn't know where to fit or where to look. It wasn't one of those "don't worry, it'll be all good, things will solve themselves out and you just need to wait" type of thing. I was so depressed that I couldn't handle it anymore. I hadn't felt that way in a while. But I'm doing much better now. I honestly don't even know what I am writing this on this xanga post that I barely even check these days, but I guess I had the energy to let things out this time and I wanted a place where I could just write. I'm not sure if things are actually solved but the time went by and I just started to look at things in a more calm way. for my own sake. I'm going to The Ohio State University next year. I'm not nervous because obviously I'm just gonna be another dot on that huge huge HUGE campus with 60,000 other students; I'm excited to be in another environment and to meet more people.. It seems like I never settle down in one place for more than 2 years, but I'm ok with it. I'm pretty sure that makes me become even more stronger because I'd never be vulnerable in any situation. And I'll be close to my brother who's now in Detroit. I'm excited. for me and him. It hasn't stopped raining all day here and I've started to get a little annoyed. |
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| i'm falling apart. i really hope today will be better. |
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| partying it up in St. Louis, MO.... YAY! It's been fun. it'll continuously be fun. woot!
pictures to come later..
My friend I'm staying with was in London last week for his spring break and he said he went to see The Equus... only because he heard that Daniel Radcliffe was in it. He had no idea what the story was about.
and yes, he saw Radcliffe's naked body. He said nothing creeps him out anymore. nothing. hahaha
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| i've been procrastinating majorly today. but! it was a wonderful weekend. Alisha (my roommate) moved out to live in on-campus apartments (i'll miss you!) so now I have a single room. woah! I rearranged everything Friday and now I have a king-sized bed.. muhaha! Two twin beds have been put together and it's quite cozy. my room's cozy. and quite colorful. yay! I went to see Carolina Hurricanes vs. Pittsburgh Penguins ice hockey game Friday.. oh my, it was my first ice hockey game and it was absolutely crazy. It kinda scared me to see all the crowd cheering for the violence (the fights between the teams.. which sort of seemed fake.) It was interesting. Those people really got into the game. hmm. whatever. I've been told that I fit in the European crew better than the Asian crew. I'm hoping to get to go to Europe this summer to visit some of these crazy peeps in Germany, Sweden and Portugal.. how fun that'd be! i'm gonna keep my fingers crossed. Spring break is coming soon.....very soon! i can't wait to go to St. Louis and Chicago! yay! ah I love this album. |
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| Sara bear, thanks for the drunk dial. twice! Now all of my friends know how much you love me. because you were on the speaker phone. TWICE! haha i heart you. a beautiful picture from the weekend!! 
Jack's Mannequin is coming to Elon....woot |
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